This morning, in the early hours before everyone was awake, I was meditating like I do, and as I gazed in glazed over stillness, the framed image of Guru Ram Das on my altar shifted and in the reflection was the wall in my hallway where 12 oil stick drawings hang.

oil stick drawing
And in that moment, the message came into my mind, “Your art is the Guru.”
And Thank You.
(Guru means “that which brings you from darkness into light” Gu = Dark, Ru = Light)
It is the truth and I have known this before, but have been wishy-washy back and forth because of little lolly-lies in my mind that ramp up and grow through repetition and turn into stone walls. False circular ramblings belittle my passion and go something like “art is a hobby” “grow up” “you are a loser” “you are selfish” “you are wasting time”…
Enough already! I am grateful that I have something that reveals myself to me. Because I am my greatest gift. And so are you.
Agnes Martin wrote in her amazing book, Writings:
Say to yourself: I am going to work in order to see myself, to free myself. While working and in the work I must be on alert to see myself. When I see myself in the work I will know that that is the work I am supposed to do.
Happy Solstice. Happy Guru. May you do the work you that brings forth the most light.
Give yourself a gift and go read Writings, by Agnes Martin